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about
I wrote this song with the incredible Jacob Kotler over this past year and half. We grew up in neighboring towns with mutual friends, but never knew each other well until we reconnected through a virtual book club at the start of the pandemic.
We were each trying to write music during lockdown, and each looking to collaborate. Jacob sent me a clip of this etherial, dark trippy tune he’d been working on. I wrote the first verse and chorus in 10 minutes; something clicked instantly with this song in a way that I knew was really special.
Through the next 17 months of FaceTime calls, listening sessions, losing stems, finding stems, re recording vocals, watching so many YouTube videos, and some serious life changes for both of us, a great fucking song emerged, created by two people in different cities who haven’t seen each other in years. We’ve both grown so much as artists and I couldn’t be more thankful to have shared that experience with J.
This song is triumph, fear, vulnerability, ego, anger, confidence, honesty. Thank you for listening.
lyrics
Don't think too much
Don't go too fast
I lose my grip
You come right back
I see it clearly
Placed my bet and it's on me
Try to let go of what I fear
Took me three years to get back here
You need me like I never will need you
I keep running 'cause the grass is always greener
Even though I like my chances
If I don't stop it'll never be enough for me
Oh give me something real
Give me something real
I make mistakes I rush my mind
You planned your whole life around mine
I'll make the world wait till I know I'm in control
(Hey, hey, hey, hey)
I keep running 'cause the grass is always greener
Even though I love you blindly
If I don't stop will I ever be enough for me
Oh give me something real
Give me something real
credits
released October 22, 2021
Vocals, lyrics and artwork by Allie Young
Produced, arranged and co-mixed by Jacob Kotler @buddy_without_organs
Mastered and co-mixed by Terrin Munawet @gbmystical
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